I haven't posted on here for a couple weeks because I haven't known what to say. I couldn't move forward without sharing this - but my emotions hadn't let me sit down to do so yet. And still, I know this will be short until I can dedicate the appropriate time to a proper farewell post to our best friend, beautiful family member, and beloved pet - Kia.
On December 9 I had to say goodbye to her for the last time. I am not in a place where I will share the details just yet. Nor have I been able to bring myself to go through photos and memories. But she deserves that. She deserves her own story. So for now, I will share the last two photos I have of my three children together. Had I known it would be the last time for such an opportunity, I would have worked harder for Sawyer to look at the camera. I didn't know. I thought there would be many more photos, heck I thought there'd be many more years. Shame on me for not trying harder and it kills me every time I look at these photos.
I swear sometimes at night I hear her eating.
I look for her in the morning when I wake up.
I call her name when no ones around and I feel lonely.
I miss my best friend.
More to come when I can manage to put some thoughts together.
