Thursday, July 10, 2014

CANADA DAY!

This year I really wanted to take in some Canada Day festivities.  Trev isn't always home for days like this, which made me want to go out even more.  He would prefer to stay home in the peaceful, calm nature of our back yard - which I can appreciate - but part of the fun is the crowds and the celebrations.  We decided to go to the zoo as we've heard about the renovations and wanted to check everything out.  The boys LOVED the choo choo ride and the paddle boats.  I wish the paddle boats had a larger perimeter to go in, but I guess it's a zoo!  The day was calling to be a HOT one, and we stayed out until the boys' faces started to show the heat (which sadly doesn't take long...they don't handle the heat as well as I wish they would...and would stay out all day if I let them even if it made them sick).  We left around lunch, went and had a nice lunch together, and went home for naps as the plan was to keep the boys up well past their bed times to take in the fireworks and the lighting of the bridge!


It was also Lucy the elephant's birthday so we got to get a close up of her AND watch her paint one of her famous pictures.


 Did a craft...

We decided to take in the fireworks and got the boys in their jammies, armed them with glowsticks, and went out.  I was really impressed with how they handled the (long) wait.  I think it was just a cool new experience for them.  I haven't been in years.  I don't think our location choice was ideal (although if the city were to trim up the bushes it would have been golden) but it was good enough to take in the festivities.

Happy Birthday Canada!

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Ms. Izzy

The Truth...

Getting a puppy was a hard step for me.  Kia was my once-in-a-lifetime dog.  I would have been content knowing that I shared many years with a great companion.  Never loving another furbaby again.  Getting a puppy was hard.  Exciting.  But hard.  I had a conversation with Trev before Izzy.  Do we want to do this?  Are we sure we want to commit to the next (hopefully 12 - 15) several years of our lives to a fur creature?  Maybe we should get the trailer and the lot at hubbles that doesn't allow dogs instead...relax the summers away by a lake?  Trevor was adamant that a dog was in our cards.  That our boys needed the same relationship I had with Kia with their own puppy.  That we were a dog family.  Don't get me wrong, my love for dogs never wavered.  I am a firm believer that a puppy/dog can teach many life lessons to children.  But my wounded heart can't imagine going through a loss like Kia again.  That kind of hurt strikes deep.  She wasn't just my dog.  She was my best friend.  For a period of transition in my life when things felt lower more often than they did higher - I had her to pull me through.  Through my love and marriage, my first babies - I had her.  It was a hard, unexpected goodbye that will just never sit right in my heart.  I wish I knew she was sick sooner, I would have done anything...ANYTHING to extend her life with me.  But it was too late.  And the thought of Izzy or any other puppy was a hard one.  After the excitement of Izzy joining our family settled, reality set in.  Izzy wasn't Kia.  And a puppy was far different than a 12 year old dog. Training is hard.  Training with small children is even harder.  Trevor received several phone calls that first week away of me in a puddle of tears on the other line.  Regret.  What have we done?  In the thick of potty training, puppy training, and child training - I wanted out.  Every day I had regret and with regret came guilt.  Who can you share that with?  I didn't want to share that with anyone.  I didn't want anyone to know how hard I was handling the transition.  Because you know what?  Izzy is fabulous.  Sweet.  Smart.  Cute.  Fabulous.  But she wasn't Kia and having her presence had the opposite impact on me.  It made me miss Kia more rather than helping that hole heal.  The first couple weeks were incredibly tough and even some moments now are tough.  But things have changed.  Izzy is a member of our family, and I am so grateful.  I can see on my boys' faces the joy that she brings them.  And in our own moments together, when there's no chaos of critters around, I feel it too.  That joy of having a companion.  Something soft to snuggle up to.  Yes, she's work - but she's catching on fast and thank goodness for that.  The breeder had made a comment the day we went to see Izzy...she told me 'don't discount yellow (Izzy); watch her.  Keep your eye on her'.  Izzy followed me everywhere.  When we brought Izzy out at the party, she came directly to me.  The breeder said, every dog will pick 'their person'.  Whether I wanted it to be me or not, it is me.  There is an underlying trust, connection, and loyalty she has to me.  I can only hope that a small part of Kia is in there somewhere.  Recently I told Trev that all Izzy's undercoat is white...she may turn out to be a white dog afterall.  His comment was maybe it was Kia shining through.  Every time I pet and snuggle Izzy and see that, I trust that it is.  But Izzy is still Izzy in her own right.  She is not Kia.  But she is a new chapter.  Our new chapter.  I am grateful for her...still somewhat frustrated with the changes, but grateful that she chose us and we chose her.  I haven't written about Kia or how I've felt and I didn't plan to tonight...but instead of writing a list of all the great things that Izzy has done and brought to our lives, because it is list-worthy, this is what came out.  So the list will have to wait for another post.  And for now, I will leave you with the sweet face that follows me around...    



 Izzy the Goldendoodle, bringing love and excitement and lessons in patience to the Ackerman household daily!  Stay tuned for more!

Small Moments

When you look out your window and see this...


Everything just feels right in my world.  Throw in the dog chasing and jumping to catch the bubbles, and everything is right in their world too!


There is something magical about bubbles, at any age!


And then we left Izzy to her own agenda alone in the yard for a few minutes, and this came to sit at the door...


Ya, I don't think you're coming in!

Do you see the guilt written on her face?!  It was bath time even after we hosed her down, which I think may have been a reward more than a punishment as this dog LOVES the water!

New Shoes

When I saw these shoes (the croc ones) in the store, I was sold!  So Trev found exactly what I was looking for online and the rest is history.  The boys adore their shoes...which is great - because boy shoes sometimes are just not as fun as girl shoes!  So these are to make up for that!

Camp Out - June 27

Trevor promised the boys a camp out this summer, so last time he was home - it was go time.  The boys had a blast.  We set up the tent and were getting things in order for a dinner when we turned around and the boys' were on the neighbors door step asking them to join our campout.  Haha...okay, the more the merrier.  It turned into having some drinks and having a great visit.  We roasted marshmallows to make s'mores, had some jiffy pop, stayed up late, and then I went to bed and the boys stayed in the tent.  Kindof!  Sawyer was really overtired and was struggling to settle, so I brought him in and it turned out to be daddy and moosey time, which is just as nice.  

I went out in the morning to peek in on them while letting Izzy out...

Jackson enjoyed it and continues to talk about doing it again.

I love this photo - Izzy was having a face off with the ball - it was hilarious.
 

In-Tent Camera...

Do you think Ms. Izzy has been welcomed into this family or what?!  The boys adore her!